A New Beginning....

What do you do when you realise you are totally and completely in love? I took the time to think about this question for the last hour. To me, its that feeling of your love being the last thing you see when you fall asleep... That last coherant thought is "I feel safe because you are here next to me.". Then waking up and the first person you see is them. Its getting butterflies everytime you see them. Its getting those giddy shivvers and giggles everytime you touch. Its realising you can't live without them. What would your world be without them... Think about it

       It truly is amazing.  To know when you are truly happy.   I have found this recently.  I am just... Happy. Totally in love and excited to see what the future will bring me.  I just dont really know how to explain how I feel.  All I know how to say is that I am happy.

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       The streets were flooded today...Dad stayed home with an illness so I had the car today :D  I am happy that I will be getting my new car soon.   Dad is adament that he doesnt want to get me a Jetta. The accident now makes him want to get me a van.  NO!!!  I feel like I did my homework!  The jetta has won the safest car award for the last 3 years running!!! Ugh Im so mad
       On a better note, Matt and I had alot of fun tonight! WE stayed home and played halo wars for a bit and I made peanutbutter apples and cinnamon for us as well.  His sister and I had alot of girl talk tonight too which was good.  Then it started to pour really hard around 9:30.  So we decided to go to the park and play in the rain.  It was fun and I am still soaked!  There is no way I will br dry after all of that!  We just basically ran around and chased eachother for about an hour.  THen we came home and attempted to dry off.  psh. 
     Now I find out that WE ARE GOING TO SEE DROPKICK MURPHY'S AT THE HOLLYWOOD PALADIUM NEXT WEEK!!!!!  Dean and Christine are going with us.   Then I also find out that this sunday is the VW show in Solvang, so dean and MAtt are driving thier bugs for show and for the coastal cruise.  Oh its going to be so much fun!  TOo bad we couldnt get our vacation for this weekend.  Oh well, Im not sure i want dean tagging alog and ruining the romance.  Eh, Whatever!

      So for the next four days after the accident, I mostly was in bed and in some sort of pain.   It was really quite bearable after 4:00 though!  Matt would come over right after work  and lay in bed with me, or he would sit on the floor in my room and we would play sims2 together. (He would build the house and I was the "decorating coordinator" :D)  We would have dinner and then usually around 11 or whenever I fell asleep, whichever came first, Dad took him home.  I liked that he always gave me a big kiss and looked right into my eyes when he told me he loved me.  Then, friday night, Brianna came over!!! I introduced her to Matt and they hit it off great!  I think once Bri saw that I could still mess with her like I used to in HIghschool around Matt, she loosened up.  They ended up ganging up on me and picking on me all night.  We three had so much fun.  I am a firm beliver that sleep and laughter cure all.  I got plenty of sleep (well during the day at least, forget sleeping at night, I seemed to get more muscle spasms at night than in the day) and friday night I got plenty of laughter.  Me and Bri took Matt home around Midnight and we went to her friend's birthday party real quick.  We just popped in and said hi to everyone then left.
     Saturday I managed to convince mom to let me go to Matts.  I was going nuts at home.  So she took me to Matt's house on the condiditon that she pick me up around six.  Fine with me, at least I got to see Matt and get out of the house.  When I got there, he was practicing his Bass and I could hear him all the way from the sidewalk!!! It sounded awsome but i felt like i was in some sort of cartoon,  struggling to get to the door, fighting the waves of sound lol.   ANy who,  when i walked into his room I was immediatly bombarded with meows and purrs of "pick me up, pick me up!" from our baby, O'Malley.  He rarely left my side all day, I think he missed me!   So we got Taco Bell and settled in to watch CAsino Royal.  When mom picked me up,  I went to my room and stared playing a game on my PS2 and ended up falling asleep by 8 ish.  Then I woke up  several times during the night, and ended up staying awake untill 6 am.  THEN i fell asleep again. 
   Sunday, (yesterady) I convinced mom and ada that i was able to drive again. (still scary but i was physically able)  So I drove the trooper to MAtts and we hung out there for a little bit and then went to Rick & Collettes to watch the Super Bowl Game.  My Aunt Tari and her whole gang was there so Matt got to meet the Irish part of my Family.  My aunt Tari LOVES him. She (who else) was able to tell he was Irish before I even said anything!  So all went well there.  We were at thier place till about 6-ish, talking about the game when I over heard one of Tari's kids (my cousin, Duke) talking abtou his guitair.  Then him and MAtt started goin to town talking about their instruments.    When we got home, we finished the game thenI took Matt home because he was not feeling too well...
   I was supposed to go to work today with my mom but I was up all night again!  So she made me stay home. 

So that was that.  And Now I must get dressed.  Im off to go see my RockStar!!!

( Your Sweet 666 )</div>

          Tuesday.  I was supposed to have Savannah but Britt never called me, thank GOD!.

   Tuesday morning, I went to Matts earlier than usual because I had issues sleeping the night before. So I crawled into bed with Matt and the Kitty and we talked for a little bit and tried to go back to sleep.  We went to 7Eleven again for hot chocolate with Irish Cream flavored creamers, and I dropped him off at work.  When I got home I played on the Xbox for a while as I ate my coffee cake.   I wound up getting a headache around noon so I took an Advil and went to take a nap.    When I woke up, it was already 3:00.  So i rushed to do my chores and got out of the house to go get Matt by  3:30, giving myself plenty of time, seeing as how he was off work at 4.  Then it happened.
    I was driving east on Chatsworth to go to Woodley.  When I passed Havenhurst, I changed lanes to the right, even though I didnt have to turn right until Woodley (Debra was the next light in between Havenhurst and Woodley) I knew it would be really difficult with traffic to change over after Debra.  I got half way down that segment of street  when I notcied a white car flying down the left hand lane.  When the car caught up with the car infront of it (which was still in front of me as well but in the left lane)  the white car slammed on its breaks and turned into my lane just as I was passing, therefore hitting me. (Almost as if it was trying to change lanes before it hit the car in front of it in order ot avoid hitting it.)  When it hit me, my front tires blew, thier windshield and passanger side windows shattered over my car, and I was slammed/dragged into a car that was parked at the curb on my right.  Needless to say I slammed on my breaks just before impact, not that it did any good.   I turned on my hazzards and called 911 (at 3:42) as I watched the car drive off!!!  I managed to stay calm while i talked to the operator  but when I called Matt to tell him I got hit and to ask him to call dad while I talked to the witnesses and police, I broke down and never stopped crying. 
      There were some really nice people that helped stop traffic behind me so that i could hobble my car all the way over to the curb. Then we found that I couldnt get out of the car, both sides. So while I tried calling matt again to see if his dad could come stay with me until my family got there, a witness too pictures of my car and the car I hit.  He then had to pry the door open to get me out.  I remember him letting go of it after i was out and it slammed shut like a rubberband.  
      The chick that hit me magically reappeared a half hour later. I never saw her car afterwards.  I managed to get hold of Melissa's mom and she was the first person there and she helped me to get all of the other chicks information and helped me find mine.. Seeing as how when i hit the parked car, my glove box flew open.  After all the info was exchanged, she took off again. Then Matt showed up.  He ran halfway from the Van Nuys Airport before he was able to get hold of dean, who brought him to me the rest of the way.  Then Dad showed up.   This by now was an hour from impact at least. Dad made a call and found out that apparently the 911 operator didnt find that it was an emergency even though i TOLD HER that i needed LAPD and EMT Ambulance because i was hurt.    While we waited Chris showed up and tried to calm me down as Dad and Matt looked at the street, you can see the skiddmarks from the chick swerving into me.   Then I saw it.... Just over Chris's shoulder in the window of the neighbor's house that I carshed in front of, was a security camera!!! YAY FOR EVIDENCE! 
     Just after I saw that, the ambulance and fire truck came. They showed up at 5:12.  They decided that I was injured badly enough to go to the hospital. Chris and Dad stayed with my car to wait for the police while MAtt went in the ambulance with me.  I told him I was scared and to call Brianna and ask if her dad was working (he is a triage nurse at Holy Cross) and when we got there he was waiting for me at the door to the hospital.  The took me in on a gurny and Ed took care of me personally.  Mom showed up about 20 minutes later.  And I cried again.  I was in so much pain.  I was in such a state of shock at the site that the only pain i noticed was in my left arm and left shoulder/neck.  At the hospital, my thighs hurt, my neck, my back, my chest.... everything.... THey released me around eight.  Matt carried me to the car.  He stayed for dinner adn we watched Stardust.  I fell asleep and Matt took me to bed.  He tucked me in and made sure i had my meds, then Dad took him home. 
     When I woke up today, I woke up to Matt kissing my cheek.  Him and dad had gone and gotten all my stuff out of the car and had it towed.
We spent all day in bed, playing playstation and sims. He took good care of me.

Well here is a pic of my car.  the angle is not so good from the initial impact but the only thing on that side is a MASSIVE dent.   have this for now and wish me luck for talking to my lawyer and the LAPD tomorrow...goodnight


 ( Whiskey in the Jar )


( Whuakwy In The Jar )       




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     Last night sucked.  I got home and tried to immediately to bed.  Well that did not happen till abtou 5:45 am.  I ended up staying up with my cat becase he was really sick.  He has the runs so bad that it matted his long fur on the back of his legs.  He felt to ill that he even growled and hissed at me as I picked him up to clean him off. It took me and Mom to do it and even still we were not able to get all of it.  He didnt dare to snap at me but toes were fair game.  Claws were flying.   So he slept all night after that.  WOrried me half to death i was about to pack him in a crate and run to the vet.  Which I still am going to do because he is still not 100%.   Hes had this before but he's usually kicked it by now.  Hes due for a few shots anyway so two birds with one stone as they say. Just AM so glad that Matt insisted on staying on the phone with me because he was that worried about Kahlu. He sounded like he was ready to come get us himself.  He was up with us all night, 

     SO I got up at about nine and took dads car over to MAtts.  We slept for another hour and then drove to grandma;s house. I took him to lunch at Giamella's for some superb PepperSteak Subs on the way, seeing as how it is only a few black away from her house.  When we got there, we ate lunch while the pool was filling and took the new floorplans around the house and adding our pencil marks to the transparency. ((The aunts and my mom wanted our opinion on the new layout/floorplans of the house for many reasons. 1. because we may be moving in. 2. Because we are younger. 3. because we do not have as much of an emmotional attatchment to the house as they do)) Then we enjoyed the quiet reverb of our voices in the empty house.  I never realised how nice it is. almost like a reccording studio.... I digress... ANyway, we drove home and then hung out at my house for a little bit while mom showed me the new stuff for the study room.

      THen our night proceeded as usual.  Dinner, Games, Movie, sleep, alarm, me come home.  But this time I didnt sleep.  and I am still up.  Matt fell asllep around 8 so I let him sleep.  Tomorrow... well today---kinda.... Anyway, today is his first day to work so He needs his rest.   Im going to be SOOOOO BORED!!! Well not entirely,  Dad will be home with me so I will be helping him to take down the christmas lights.  But that wont take too long.  I have no idea what time Matt is off... I hope its early but then again I dont, He needsthe hours. Tomorrow he works for Mark, as a Direct contact vendor.  THis means that he calls the petstores that carry and do not carry Mark's products and sees if they would rahter deal through the vendor direct (Cheaper for the store because they dont have to pay a third party, and more money in mark's pocket because the third party {distributor} wont be taking a cut)  Makes sense to me.  If I were still in reatil I would SO go direct vendor rather that distributor any day.   Its also easier to return faulty items and get replacements faster.  Usually there is no minimum order fee either which makes it easier to fill stock without having so much overstock. 
   
     So that was my day.

   Today was alright. It was slow but thats ok.  I woke up at about 7 and found that mom and dad had already left for work.  Odd... So I got up and fed the cats and off I went.  The plan was this: I was going to pick up Matt and then we were going to come back here where I would make a healthy breakfast and then we would go for a brisk morning run and then hit the bowflex.  Well that did not happen.   I got to Matts and when I walked into his room, his was still crashed... as usual, but thats ok.  So I crawled in next to him, moved the cat and wispered into his ear "What time are we getting up?"  "8:30" was the answer i got.  So, I set my alarm and dozed for the remaining hour.  When I woke him up at 8:30 I got a very cranky answer and we eneded up sleeping till about one. When we finally made it home, I made some home-made sausage burgers with BBQ sauce and then we hit the machine.  God its so hot to see his muscles work while he's on the bowflex.   It made me a terrible spotter lol.   Then I went and took a shower and we just played on the Xbox till my parents got home.  Dad and Matt were playing Call of Duty together for some time while I helped mom cook dinner.  It was then that She brought up that Matt and I have been together for five months.  She proceeded to tell me that Dad and her would not dissapprove of us getting married;  randomly.... out of the blue.... kinda scary coming from her. but thats alright.   Well goodnight my friends. Wish me luck for tomorrow


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      Well today was actually quite nice.  I woke up around 10am, after mom and dad went to grandma's to fill the pool, and drove to Matts.  It felt really odd being as how I left much later than usual.  So, anyways; I got to Matts and as usual, crawled back into bed, slid the cat off my pillow and back inbetween us (his fave morning spot cuz its warm) and went back to sleep.  We slept till about late noon ish.  Well I slept till late noon-ish.  My cell phone was ringing so, thinking it was my mom calling from grandmas house, i clammoured over Matt and the cat, fell flat on my face off the bed, and then spent about 10 minutes on the floor texting the person who had called.  Matt ended up rolling over wide eyed, apparently he heard my faceplant into the carpet.  So I jumped back into bed, sorta in a sour mood and TRIED to fall asleep again.   I ended up downloading a game to my cell phone called "Chop Sushi" (an addicting puzzle game).  Fell asleep about an hour later and we woke up around three.  Matt then played some Gears of War2 while I continued on my sushi quest.  He took a shower and then we went to my house to hang with my parents.   He then decided to go off-roading with Dean. (The VW bug that broke down in "of old friends and tow trucks")  That, apparently was an event in its own.  I didnt really mind that our planns got cancelled. Mostly because he doesnt get to see Dean often.  Mostly because Dean doesnt seem to realise that just because me and Matt are together when her calls, doesn't mean that they cant hang out.  All Matt has to do is say something and thats it.  I really dont mind that he hangs out with friends. But Dean just assumes "oh your with her.  Never mind" and acts all childish about it. 
     So While the boys were out, I had dinner with my parents and played Sims for a couple of hours.  Then, when they went to bed I was able to jump onto the Xbox360 and play Civilization Revolution until Matt got home.  We talked as we played together and then ended up playing Call Of Duty: World at War.  Not my favorite game but ti was quite fun playing with him becuase he let me use the flame thrower.   We got all but one game achievement then we had to wait for two of our other friends to get on.  The last achievement was that we had to come out in first place in 4v4 online co-op...... we ended up waiting for player 4 till abotu 2:30 am. But in the end, everything worked out and we all got our achievements.   And now I am off to bed.... I have a LONG run ahead of me tomorrow morning.

      So, Last saturday, Matt and I woke up and decided that we have a shitload of stuff to do.   We went to the bank, went to the market and went to PetCo.   Well that was the plan at least.  We didnt end up getting out of bed till about 2pm as it was lol.  Talia called and we decided that while she was at the mall, we were going to grab lunch and she would come with us to do our errands.  In that light, Chris texted me while we were eating.
    "Hey.  The TV is out . Come over, we'll drink and play cards all night." 
So, we did!  After we did our errands with Talia, we went back to the store and bought Guiness and Blue Moon Ale and treked up to my brothers place. 
     When we got there we played cards for about an hour when Larry (my brother-in-law) and MIke (Family Friend) showed up to join in the no tv festivities.  About an hour and two beers each later, Matt and Larry dissapeared into the other room to play Pool.   We had alot of fun and ended up spending the night.  Everyone was impressed that I had 7 bottles and was still standing steady. Not even a buzz.  As you will recall, Chris makes KILLER rum and cokes.  I managed to stay away from those and I think thats why I was fine lol.

 So the next day, the drive home was interesting. .... My car brakes went out.  Litterally.  So i had to call dad and I followed him drive my car to Pepboys Auto. Sucks....Well my car is fixed now and ALL IS WELL!!!!

Well then, lets try this again shall we?

         Christmas was great.... Well better than expected.

Christmas Eve:
                   Matt and I spent Chirstmas eve morning together just sleepin and enjoying eachothers company.  Once it got a little later, we went to my house so that I could make the Jello dish for dinner at my Aunt's house later that night.  Once we got that done, mom had me get some last second wrapping for my cousins done.  We then went shopping (I know, suicide) because Matt needed a nice shirt for dinner.  That was actually painless.   We went to my  aunt's place and had dinner with the family, which was awsome.  Matt getts along really well with my Aunt and Uncle. Poor Chris and Lissa were sick, so only my brother came.    After dinner we went to Matt's grandma's house.  I met most of his Dad's side of the family.  I dont think his grandmother likes me much.  Which was kind of a shock.  I wore a pinstripe skirt that was down to my knees and even heels, but then I hear that she never liked ANY of Matt's girlfirends. So its not really a huge shock to everyone else.  I really like two of his aunts and one of his uncles.  They actually made me feel like family already and were very nice... His mom was a little clingy to me but thats ok.   After fun at his grandma's we went home to Matts house.  I couldnt wait to get out of my nice clothes a litterally tossed them off to get into a pair of sweats and one of matts t-shirts.  We then opened presents.  We had lots of fun.  I am happy.  Christmas Day:
               I slept in till about 10 an then opened presents with mom and dad. I got lots of Sims2 expantion packs and I really like them lots.  After a while of family time, I went to Matts. We went to the market to get some snacks and then played out games till about five thirty when I got a call from Dad.  He called to tell me that my grandma was on the way for a quick visit so we should come home.  Which we did. So we hung out at my house and waitied for my brother and sister to show up.... irionically right as grandma was leaving.  Normally, Grandma has Christmas dinner with us but her husband was sick so she stayed home with him.  We all had dinner and hung out and had a great time.   Then around 10 when Matt and I were just getting ready to leave, she called.  Pete was in the hospital and she needed a ride home, so Matt and I went and got her home safe.

Last tuesday:
              I quit my job.  Reason?!  Because the owner is a shady ass fuck who says that I dont so my job.  Well how is that possible when he scheduals me off five days ina row every fucking week?!? So he was going to suspend me "untill further notice" which means "your suspended untill payday then i will fire you because I am lazy and dont want to fire you now and have to give you a check now."  Asshole.

NewYears Eve: 
            We went to dinner for Matt's little sister's birthday with his parents and we had a good time.  It was great because there were no arguments, which is unusual.  Then we went home and took a small nap, went to my place and celebrated with mom and dad and went back to matts.  where we got pulled over for no reason.  Long story and Im tired of typing.  

So thats it for now,.

     Just as the Title says, Matt has Indeed Posessed my heart.  

Today, we spent ALL DAY in bed.  It was sooo nice. I got there a little before 7am and just crashed.  Then we both got woken up by his mom poundng on his bedroom window, saying that she locked her keys in the car and she needed  Matt to use his key to open it.  Then we watched Happy Gilmore and slept till 11 am, when we decided that lunch was in order.  We ended up staying in bed another three hours just talking and enjoying the atmosphere. While i made us a late lunch (at 3pm might I add) Matt took a shower.  We then decided to watch yet ANOTHER movie in bed after lunch, and took a nap.  When we woke up, our paychecks were in,  so we were able to get in some last minuet shopping and I was able to buy an outfit that I wanted to wear when I meet the rest of his family tomorrow night.  (eek!)  After we finished wrapping the gifts at my house, we went for dinner at Taco Bell. 
         The whole time we were in line for the drive in, we were talking about getting married and all that sort of mushy gushy stuff lol.  I was soo happy, happier than I have been in a long time.    We got home and started talking to his mother when Matt pulled out a small blue box from his jacket.  "Dont get your hopes up, Im not getting on one knee yet." Was what I got.  lol.    Its sooo gorgous.  Its a quartz heart necklace with a genuine four leaf clover in the center.  And even better, it goes with the dress I am going to wear to his family's palce for Christmas Eve.... Which I am very nervous about.  

          My heart is possessed...
I love him....
                  I am so excited to see what the future holds for us.

So here i am lying in bed with matt. I was able to sucessfully sleep through most of the gunfire of Gears of War 2. But hes still playing and being a butt. I want something i havnt been able to have in two weeks and hes 'not in the mood' ugh im angry

       Some may ask why I am moving to colorado.  Contrary to POPULAR belief, I want to move because the culinary school I want to go to is just outside of Colorado springs, and it is cheaper for me to just rent a house rather than use the dorms.  I asked Matt if he would want to come with me and he said that he would support me in any way he can and that he couldnt stand not having me in his arms every morning.  So yeah hes going. Family understands. Every single one of them, Friends understand as well.  I just have one thing to say

        Fuck you.  If you are going to be an asshole and thinking that everything is about you, then just forget it.

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     Last Night was fun.  After I got home, I played spore for about another 2 hours.  Then I made a choice. I am fuckin done with Verizon. I only am getting about every other text message and only certain people are getting mine.  My service sucks. My phone crapped out on me AGAIN... Fuck this. I'm going onto Matt's sprint account.  Which will mean a new phone number.  Speaking of Matt.... There seems to be a rift between our families. I knew this would happen.  Wwll you all know that I had Matt over for Thanksgiving?  Well his mom got all bent-outta-shape because he got drunk and spent the night.  Then gave him hell for not being home for dinner, when she told him that they were not having company and not doing anything special (just cooking all day) and to go ahead and spend it with my family!! THen she said for Christmas, spend it in two options:

Option A: Spend Christmas eve with My family and Christmas Night with his
Option B: Split both nights. and "Just drink at the last place you visit" and he answered with "But you wont let Becky Spend the night."  She proceeds to say "your right.  I dont belive in that. I never did that untill I was married..... I stayed untill 5am but thats not sleeping over."  "Bullshit thats not sleeping over!"

  So last night, Matt tells me that his family is spending Christmas eve with his dads side of the family, and would I be willing to make an appearance? Sure, not an issue at all. O just need to tell collette if we are coming for dinner or pie. Then he says that he doesnt like that side of the family because its is Step-dads side and they dont view Matt as family at all. Which sucks.  And his mom was bitching that he would rather spend time wiht my family than his own and that he NEVER takes part in family activites, even though they NEVER do any type of "family activites"!! He like my family because they welcomed him with open arms and immediately made him family. My aunt Mary and him were playing Gin Rummy and drinking tea when I got there after my final!! I just feel bad that she KNOWS how he is treated by that side of the family and she is so selfish that she wants to keep him from having any sort of family time of being felt welcome on Christmas.  He was soo bad lastnight that he wanted to just stay home and keep the peace and to make his mom feel like an ass.   This is exactly why we will NOT let our parents meet.  Well my parents can meet his Dad, we like him.  But not his mother.  thats that.

I reccomend from now on, go to Project playlist's website and search and play the songs I mention in each entry while you read. This will give more a feel of the true meanings of my entries.  THe Title is always the title of the song I listen to when I write my entry, the "Music" slot is the artist.

Wasting the Dawn  - 69Eyes

Been runnin' away
so long from the day
Into the strange night of stone
To fade away
As the light is gently
Bleedin' out of my soul
Penetratin' the evening
As I ride
On this endless road

But you can't turn back the time
It always gonna wait on the line

Some may wish never to be born
Wastin' the dawn
Like a rose growin' from the Christ's thorn
Wastin' the dawn

Been waitin' for you for so long
Little bird of prey
To fly me higher
To the brighter day
Where the Lizard lingers long
Under the sun
Forgettin' the night
Darkest July
Paris '71...

    TOday was pretty good.  I woke up early early to a cold wet nose in my ear.  (Indiana needed to go outside, and thats his new way of waking me up)  So I went to Matts house and went back to sleep till abotu 9:30 when I had a coughing fit.  I could NOT fall back to sleep.  SO we got up and trecked out to venice beach because we didnt go last night.  We swung by Taco Bell and then I dropped him off at work and went home.  I felt like shit and was looking forward to having some company.  BUt then I saw that Dad stayed home today because of his vertugo acting up again, so I was not able to have my friend over... thats ok though because I felt like shit so I ended up sleeping till about 4 as it was.     So when I went to pick u Matt after work, he was holding the little grey and white kitten that had been there for about a month now.  He looked at me and saud "I want him sooo badly"  Soooo...... I convinced my manager to let me take him home for no charge. :D 
   His Name is O'malley :)

This is a pic of us sleeping off full tummies  after dinner

    Ok so on December 8th, Lunamae was born. She weighed a whopping 7pounds 5 ounces and was 18 inches long.  Elise looks sooo tired, and yet shes glowing.    Luna looks so much like her daddy.  And when I held her, she looked at me like she was going to cry.  I Said "Hello, Lunamae"  she relaxed and then just snuggled into my chest almost like "I know you".  It was awsome.  Matt looked at me with this love in his eyes as I gave elise time to take a small nap.  He kept looking at me looking at Luna, almost with that  "This just looks so right.... BUt not yet, so dont ask"  kind of look.   Almost like he was sad that it couldnt be 'yet' yet.

if only they knew.....

    So after we saw the baby, Matt took me to STARBUCKS in the Knollwood shopping center.  I ordered something new, I got the "Salted hot chocolate"  It was like eating a chocolate covered pretzel.  Which is a good thing..... If you like chocolate covered pretzels..... Which i do.   Then we went back home.   I had a warm tummy and needed a nap, myself...  (We had gotten up really early that morning to do a side job.)  So, I litterally hit the bed and I was gone.  I think MAtt spent most of my nap playing on the Xbox and on his computer.   But thats ok... cuz i got a nice suprise after my nap :D
   Then we went to go see Aunt Mary so that Matt could fix her security cameras,  which we have to go finish today.    We spent the evening at myhouse with mom and dad, helping put up our Christmas lights... Wwll we OFFERED but dad insisted that we go inside.  So we did!  We helped mom order Pizza and played some games.   My Aunt Collette invited Matt to spend Chirstmas with us at their house, where we celebrate Christmas eve every year.  YAY!!   Well thats about it.  

I am still waiting for my friend to update thier LJ as well.
Hopefully there will be one tonight

       Today was awsome.  I spent all day with Talia !!!  :)  

And yet, I feel that I am getting sick.

  So today was looong  and BORING AS HELL.   I was really pissed off last night because I got home and found in my email 2 Password change requests for Live Journal and even worse, THEY WERE ALREADY OPEN!!! I couldnt get inot my live journal because someone changed my password!!! I managed to fix the problem by making up a new password and changing my email password as well.  I happened to be on the phone wiht a friend and she said that she had seen the same thing in her email earlier that day.  She thinks that it was a false login form scam.  Kinda like what happened with myspace at one point.  UGH I WAS SOO MAD!!!  
     So back to work, I spent all day today practically rolling in the dirt.  I was re-mercahndicing the whole aquatics section of the store.  The shelves were caked in dust and naturally, I ended up wearing most of it.  Oh, oh and then i spilled a bag of "Instant Ocean"
 and fell on my ass (which still is sore, thanks for asking). Im just glad that we were slow today so that I was actually able to finish the whole project in one day, rather than two days, like usual.
     Im just killing time now, I have to wait for Matt to get out of the shower so that we can go to my house and I can clean my room. 


Annnnnd.......thats the bathroom door opening. Bye!